Ok, I have been very very lame in posting. I am sorry!
Yesterday was the half marathon down in Vancouver. I really had a lot of apprehension about doing it. I had started training earlier in the year and was doing well, then I just stopped. I started again about 2 months ago, but my heart wasn’t in it.
Then I had to decide if I still wanted to go and try the marathon or just give up all together and wait for another one. I knew I wouldn’t complete it, and it seemed like a big effort for something I wouldn’t even finish. But, I have many wonderful friends and family and everyone was so supportive and they helped me realize that it would be good for me to go.
So, Steve and I drove down yesterday morning, leaving at 4:30 in the morning. We met our friend Deb there, and I did it! I completed 7 miles of the 13.1 and I’m pretty happy with that. It was farther than I thought I would go! And my friend Deb completed the entire race!! So proud of her.
I am very very sore today and tired, but happy. Being overweight, it’s hard for me to feel comfortable doing events like marathons or anything relating to health and exercise. I feel like people are judging me, but I also know I’m not in great shape, so I wonder myself why I am doing it. It’s a hard mental state to get over. There was a huge variety of ages and shapes and sizes at the marathon yesterday, it was excellent.
I am still learning that the only stereotypes I need to overcome are the ones I have myself. It doesn’t matter if I’m fat, or short, or a female, or a redhead, I can do what I want and I can try to do everything. I may not succeed, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t try.
So, my next goal – I’d love to actually complete a half marathon!!!
Oh, and an update with my Swedish Weight Loss program (wrote about it in my last blog.)
I’m doing pretty well…down about 20 pounds so far. It’s slowly getting easier. Tracking food is still annoying, but I’m seeing success and it’s good. The best thing is that I believe in myself, and believe that I can do what I need to make myself healthy.
Did I mention how crazy sore I am? I mean, in places you wouldn’t even believe, like the back of my knees.